The Music Box

As I was wheeled closer to my room, I saw my husband talking on the phone, repeating to another person what seemed to be the darkest word in our language, “Allana has leukemia.” Standing near him in the doorway was our pastor. The look in his eyes is one I will never forget. It was one of sadness, deep love, and the tattletale sign that he was screaming on the inside wishing this moment was anything but true. But he isn’t just our pastor; he is our friend. Then, as I entered our room, I saw one of my best friends. She was holding Nisa Faith, our 19-day-old daughter. Somehow, I knew she was torn apart inside; however, on the outside, she had a deep look of peace. When a nurse helped me to my bed, I noticed another dear friend who is truly like a brother. Out of the three, he looked the most devastated, but I remembered he smiled and then joked that all the attention was on me. Trust me, in the months to come; his humor helped A LOT!

As January 4th, 2013, came around, my room became silent, and I shut my eyes as Sam and I began to pray.

When I opened my eyes, I saw a beautiful music box; you know, the one that has a beautiful ballerina spinning on top. My Heavenly Father told me to come closer. As I did, I saw that it wasn’t a ballerina but a little girl dancing with her daddy. I smiled at the beauty they held and yet felt a little bit of hurt because I had never experienced such a thing from my own earthly father. God told me to come closer. As I did, I saw that the little girl’s feet were on top of her dad’s. Tears formed in my eyes at the precious scene they made. He told me to come closer. As I did, I became that girl. His arms were gentle and yet strongly wrapped around me. With my feet upon His, He said to me, “My precious daughter, I adore you. I cherish you. You are my prized possession. This road is going to spin us around and around. Keep your feet on mine; put your arms around me. No matter how fast we spin, I will never let you go.”

God gave me this vision of the music box. The music box that would indeed become my life. My Heavenly Father kept His promise. He was with me every single step.

If you find yourself in a life-spinning event, please allow me to encourage you… God loves you more than you can possibly comprehend. It doesn’t matter how much you have pushed Him away; He adores you. He finds you truly precious. He is calling to you, asking you to trust Him. He IS faithful!

(a special thanks to Dani Herrera for taking the vision in my heart and making it appear on paper.)

Our 2 Cents: At the end of January 2013, Allana’s blood test was clean much to the amazement of the doctors and staff at the hospital, especially considering this type of cancer. As a precaution, Allana would undergo a bone marrow transplant in June and by August 2013, she was declared cancer free, fully in remission. Allana said that she considers this a miraculous healing…

So do we.